Lonely London Lad Is Getting Out of Music. For an Evening.
Okay, I've had it. Years and years of seven-day work-weeks and 2 A.M. bedtimes have left me exhausted. So I'm getting completely out of music, out of MySpace, out of everything -- for this evening, and hope tomorrow I will have renewed vigor.
What I really need is a whole month off. I did that a few years ago, went to a little dot in the middle of the South Pacific for an entire month and just snorkeled and ate exotic fruit. Though that was probably too much. You can lose your edge taking too much time off. And you need an edge. I need an edge, anyway, if I want to produce things with edge.
So an evening off may do the trick. I know it is getting to be too much when everything annoys me, but that usually isn't enough to stop me, and I just press on, and eventually bounce back. But today I willingly mailed off the daily box of CDs, t-shirts, and posters, and I even welcomed standing in line at the post office. Ironically, that desire for mindless simplicity, without the usual impatience, told me I needed to take a break.
For years I was a fanatical road cyclist, and would spend upwards of 4 hours a day training in the mountains, day after day. I would take my pulse as soon as I awoke, and the reading would tell me whether my body had recovered enough from the previous day's efforts to do it again, or if I needed a rest day. I sometimes wish something like that existed for work... just take your pulse and you would know whether to press on, or lay off. Most people are employed by someone else, so they need to press on regardless of how they feel. That is one of biggest advantages of being self-employed: You can take a nap in the middle of the day if you need to. If you know enough to know that you need to.
Today I also took my daily run (no time anymore for 4 hour bike rides) and was hurting throughout, but as I was hurting I thought that it mirrored my mental state... That with a little recovery, I would be able to do it again tomorrow, refreshed. Or the day after.
So no new blogs (after this one!), no wild comic writing, no videos, no working on songs, no time in the studio, no catching up on email, nothing -- Just something completely different. I might watch "Lawrence of Arabia"... Or listen to a Shakespeare recording... Or do something mindless... Anything at all, to let the LLL well fill back up.
That should do the trick.
Until then...
LLL
